I've been worry and worry about the result and yet, it has been postponed to 8/7, OMFG! Can you guys read the situation I having on the spot, is so terrible!And the sad case is, my mum's mum passed away on Tuesday noon :( I having a superb serious dilemma with my mood, I can't calm down myself due to the pressure giving by the freaking result, and also the unexpected news from my grandmum! However, I try to talk to my heart, and pray to God, please let me stay strong, I can't turn into a weak cat right now, my mum needs me! I need to stay beside her and comfort her, not being so selfish worry about my own situation, but ignore one whose' so important in your life!So yea, I did learn and underwent the hard path in the early week of July. :( *God, stay with me!*
And of course, we went down Negeri Sembilan for my grandmum's funeral,and spend a couple of days there. Met long-time-no-see relatives, and also my cousins.It's a long long hours journey,we spend like 6 HOURS "car trip" in order to reach my mum's hometown, OH GOSH!Obviously, I have a flat ass now @.@ Anyway, I never been to Chinese traditional funeral before, and this is the second time as I attended the first funeral,whereby my mum's dad passed away when I was 15 years old. The REAL COINCIDENT case happened was, I received PMR result during the first funeral, and now, I receiving my Year 2 result. My fate and destiny with my grandpa and granmum, maybe sounds creepy for you guys, but this is true case happened in my life.
Back to the result, so yea,been postponed to 8/7,and this is the day which according to Chinese tradition, the 3rd day of the funeral,it is necessary for the coffin to be send to thee grave yard and buried it. Everyone is crying and yea, my mum either. Well,I on my way checking my result, my mood superb distracted by the circumstance and I cried when I received my result. This is not the best situation at all,your grandmum passed away, and another way round, you are so nervous for your freaking result! and the "best" part was, you fail a freaking subject which is not counted by university in UK, and hell yea you gotna resit for this subject no matter how according to HELP( my college) policy -.- This was so unexpected at all, wat a sad case! :( Things not goin well around you, and you have the kinda feeling ,END of the world! Sick and tired of the freaking life, and the freaking subject, and someone who's so important for your family passed away! OMFG! I CAN'T BREATHE AT ALL! My mind stuck at the moment, only tears dropping down, and you sense the saddest of goodbye and taste the salty tears drooling on your face. All you can do, cry out loud !The best way for me to release myself, through crying.
After all, when you turn around and look, the path you been through, sit down and think of it, maybe this is part of your life. God gives us chance to learn the hard way, and yea, this might not be the hardest part.There shall be more challenges lay down in your future.Human can't think properly when FIRST,there's things which hurt them so badly on the spot!Emotions rules between us,when you sad you cry, when you happy you laugh, when you outta your mind, you ROFL! Brain functions back to normal once you get urself relax and sit down recalled the scenarios happened in your life. You will then realized, this is part of your life, and you shall stay strong in order to grant a better life. God will always be with you,proclaim your prayers and God will lead us to the correct road. Decisions are always in our own hands, God will only lead us, but the truth, you shall make the move and no one else would able to lend a hand.
And so, I learn the way, not to give up or blame anyone else, telling myself "this is a challenge in your life, and you shall stand up fight against the devil!" Study hard and resit the sub and grant a better result, make ur future a brighter one! A small dilemma, won't make me fall so easily! Thanks for those who stay beside me, and comfort me not to think so much and giving me advises. I should stay positive not to fear as there are friends who can't make through this finals, and so I only fail a sub which consider not so important, and yea, I should feel pleased instead of worry so much. All I need to do now, study hard for the sub during this month before the resit, make it through flying colours. I will really appreciate friends who stay beside me all the time, thanks for my parents' understanding, especially my mum,I love you of course,the man,Mr.Dicky, although we had some fight and argue during thee week, but we do stay strong after all! THANKS lot! ALL significant cares I've received, I will always remember the kindness of yours,*memories box*
I will certainly appreciate the existence of THEE, friends, family and also the love one♥♥♥
LEARN THE WAY, nobody will grant you a future, unless you, yourself work for it! ♥
APPRECIATION, CHERISH, TREASURE ALL I own right now! ♥
Stay tunes peeps, for lovely post:) May God bless you ♥♥
xoxo
anazz
APPRECIATION, CHERISH, TREASURE ALL I own right now! ♥
Stay tunes peeps, for lovely post:) May God bless you ♥♥
xoxo
anazz
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